manusia itu...aneh.

kadang-kadang gw gak ngerti sama apa yang sebenernya dibutuhkan (ataupun membutuhkan) manusia. bla3 bla2, karena manusia makhluk sosial, jadi jawabannya adalah manusia lain.

tapi berhubungan sama kebutuhan antar manusia(seperti yang pernah gw baca di http://darwintanzil.blogspot.com), gw jadi sedikit bingung…terutama, kebutuhan terkait hubungan eksploitatif satu sama lain. simbiosis, baik yang mutualisme maupun parasitisme.

contoh: lagi galau soal orang yang bernama x, tapi sedih karena dia cuma speak up kalo lagi butuh pertolongan aja. kita lalu bilang “ah, si x nyari gw cuma kalo ada butuhnya doang! bego amat gw mau dimanfaatin,” but you’re still and will always be there for him anyway. kenapa? karena on the other hand ketika orang tersebut ga nyari kita lagi, kita akan merasa useless, and useless is like one of the worst feeling(s) on earth. pertanyaan gw #1: apakah justru kita harus merasa bersyukur karena orang tersebut membebaskan kita dari rasa ke-tidak berguna-an? atau sebaliknya malah harus menghindar, karena possibly kita bisa melepas rasa ke-tidak berguna-an itu on something else selain memenuhi kebutuhan orang tersebut, jadi ga merasa dimanfaatkan?

frankly speaking, this happens to me a lot. contoh lain: when people put on a high-expectation (alias overestimate), gw merasa tertekan. tapi ini nggak berlaku vice versa. ketika gw di low-expect (alias underestimate), gw merasa kesel dan pengen buktiin ke orang tersebut kalo gw ga sebodoh itu. atas kerancuan ini, kalo kalian bilang solusinya adalah “sebaiknya dianggap biasa-biasa aja”, I assume that basically nobody wants to be seen as just ordinary. semua orang pengen punya sesuatu yang beda dari orang lain. buktinya ketika seseorang komentar tentang lo, misal: “oh, kalo dia sih, biasa aja” sedikit-banyak akan ada rasa sedih…errr. pertanyaan gw #2: is this normal or is this just me?

makin dipikir, makin ga nemu jawabannya. maaf, random.

*oh just another crap throughout my page, cya* :|

(another) s3w debate story

so.. I came to SMAK 3 Week for the second time.

their theme this year: The 8th Wonders

my team consisted of:

- Stefanny as the 1st speaker

- Me as the 2nd speaker

- Kario as the 3rd speaker

just like last year, we had 4 prelims and quarters, semis & final after that.

for the prepared motions, they gave us 3 headings:

Religion, Indonesia & Electronic Lifestyle

1st pre-eliminary (vs SMAN 1 Tg B)
motion: THW ban Blackberry (prepared) as GOV
Single adju losing decision with margin -1,5

2nd pre-eliminary (vs SMAN 2 Tg Selatan)
motion: THS the us of torture in U.S. (impromptu) as GOV
Single adju winning decision with margin +2

3rd pre-eliminary (vs SMAK 3 B)
motion: THBT TNI/Polri should have their rights to vote (prepared) as GOV
Single adju winning decision with margin +6

4th pre-eliminary (vs SMAN 1 Tg B)
motion: THW criminalize homophobic movements (impromptu) as OPP
Single adju winning decision with margin +0,5

until the end of the prelim we've got +7 margins

quarter final (vs Ipeka Sunter A)

motion: THS the use of terror in protecting environment (impromptu) as GOV

Unanimous winning decision 3 to 0 (3 adjus) with margin unknown

so, here..when it came to motion preferences, me and my team were like "how the hell on earth my opponent chose this order of preference? it's easier for their position to debate about motion number two than ecoterrorism!". since I used to love being in the "good position" to be hard on ppl who hurt environment, my team did the debate kind of greatly (yah at least I guess so).. after the decisions we asked Dyslai why did she prioritize this motion and she was just saying "Ya ampun! gua salah preference gara-gara Glen!!" then we laughed out loud..hahahha

semi final (vs Ipeka Pluit)

motion: THW acknowledge all religion, faith and believe in Indonesia (prepared) as OPP

Unanimous winning decision 5 to 0 (5 adjus) with margin unknown

after facing IPSUN on the quarter..I just relieved, it's done, facing our own friend. but then, tragedy..oh..tragedy. it happened (again), we had to face IPLU with Glen as one of the speaker. the last time I faced Glen in a debate was last year's BL1TZ SMAK 1 Cup on Quarterfinal round, he did great with his british pronounciation style..and I felt so retarded, left behind by my junior high school's best friend -____-. lucky, we won :D

grand final (vs SMAN 1 Tg B)

motion: THW abolish all limitations on immigration (impromptu) as GOV

Split losing decision 3 to 6 (9 adjus) with margin unknown

I didn't understand what the motion is all about, I'm dying, telling my teammates "I'd better faint than got ashamed this way!!". but then, they forced me to struggle, but I stupidly came forward to the podium brought up my shameful points which are not my points at all because Kario just told me what I have to argue since I didn't really understand how this mechanism's going to work. I'm not into my speech, it's an argument without a soul from the speaker, no way it'll be great. I'm sorry mates.. forgive this awful second speaker :(

so.. again, I lost to the team that had Sindhu as one of them for the 2nd time =_____=

it was totally my fault, because I didn't know the case, I didn't understand the thing / issue, I've never even been abroad!!

though Kario (the only one in my team who's ever been abroad) tried hard to explain me about immigrations/visa/etc I still can't get the point.

I came forward as a second speaker of the GOV team, talking about nonsense I didn't understand! :(

it made our team looked so lame and it wasn't even a proper debate as a FINAL ROUND.

worst debate I've done in this competition was the final round.

great.. I ashamed myself hahaha! =_____=

even most of the adjudicators give me such bad comments when I asked for personal assessment,

one of the adjus; named Alun, said:

"All of the 2nd speaker's points are silly"

alias

"Semua argumen 2nd speakernya konyol abis" --> HAH, you mean, ME? it hurts my deepest butt, no, I mean HEART. I was about to cry, lucky I could hold it back :'(

the best speaker's Gabby from SMAN 81. congrats gab! you're cool! :)

but, then think again. I'm still thankful to all my friends who supported me, my understanding mom and God! :)

p.s.: this time we sent 2 teams; my team and 1st grader team. we're so happy because the 1st grader made lot of friends and seemed like they love debate as much as we do (L)

muchas gracias. hasta luego!

one nation controlled by the media

hello

so, yeah, Green Day fans must have known that this is a piece of "American Idiot" lyric.

by its title we all know this song's made to aware the Americans for them, not to be fooled by the power of medias.

haha. but what's so funny is, I feel like this time it sounds "Sooo Indonesia".

proofs: video ariel-luna, ariel-cut tari. udah bikin semua orang di Indonesia, dari anak kecil, remaja, ibu2, bapak2, nenek2, kakek2 jadi nonton video porno hahaha

tentunya fenomena yang tidak pantas dibanggakan ini terjadi tanpa terlepas dari peran media-media yang hampir setiap jam, pasti ada aja yang memberitakan.

definition of media:

media¹

n

1. a plural of medium

2. (Electronics & Computer Science / Communications & Information) the means of communication that reach large numbers of people, such as television, newspapers, and radio

well, if that counts Twitter and Facebook in, gw sering merasa kalo kita ini terlalu tergantung sama media komunikasi dalam menjalani hidup kita belakangan ini, terutama sejak Twitter ngetrend (not to be a hypocrite, gw juga ga bisa lepas dari Twitter kok haha).

mungkin karena kita manusia makhluk sosial kali yah? hahaha *alasan klasik*

kita bisa liat kok, sering banget TT di Twitter itu topik dari Indonesia. bingung nih harus bangga apa malu?

haha. yah.. kayaknya bangganya kalo kita nge-up topic bagus,

tapi kalo topic yang kita up itu yang kayak "Wasit Goblog", "Ariel Peterporn"

dimana letak bangganya? hahaha. maksud gw yah, itu kan agak kasar,

emangnya mau Indonesia dikenal sebagai negara kasar?

great for me to know deh, kalo emang kita pengen bikin Indonesia dijulukin negara kasar.

yah.. gitu dulu deh, I guess that's all for now :b

see ya guys.